Feel the burn

Oh, the heartburn has taken off, we now have daytime heartburn. Today I have eaten:

Alpen for breakfast
Mushroom soup and a roll for lunch (coke to drink)
A kit kat mid afternoon
A cupcake at teatime
Mushroom soup for tea.

What gave me heartburn from that lot? The kit kat, and the second lot of soup. Go figure. I had a chocolate mousse following the indigestible soup, and that fixed it for a bit. Then I had a bath and the lying down-ness of that kicked off full on heartburn and the crazy cough. That is not present by day, but does seem to be relieved by my asthma inhaler so I can presume that my asthma is triggered by squashed lungs. Which makes sense really.

A glass of water seems to aid both ailments temporarily, and gaviscon gives short term relief to the burn.

My omnipresent cushion is proving a godsend. Assuming I drive to everywhere I go and lay a cushion everywhere I sit, I can deal with the pelvic pain. Either that or it's eased off a bit, but I'm not overly keen to test that out. I will find out in three weeks when the boys go back to school and I have to do the pesky school run. Hubby is confident he can do the morning runs (I will have to do the first day however) so I just have to get them at home time for 6 weeks (max). I will take over both again once baby is out and I can walk again as I will woefully need to get some level of fitness back. My calves are shrinking daily! Baby and I shall wander up and down to school and get Mummy a semblance of fitness.

One of the ladies on my Mums Due iVillage board who was a week or so ahead of me had her baby today.

!!!!!!!!!

She has had problems and seemed to be expecting this (I am her friend on Facebook but I'm not sure if she realises), as well as having had a least one baby at 32 weeks previously. Her comment today was that her baby girl needed a bit of help breathing. Fingers crossed all remains well there.

(and selfishly, please don't let my baby spontaneously appear any time sooner than mid sept, or for my health to require her removal prior to that).

Dissertation is not happening. I have a fortnight left to do it, and get it in. 10,000 in 10 days say: that's 1000 a day WITHOUT FAIL. I'll go for 2000 a day (ha!) and reassess my progress on Monday. Then perhaps admit it's not going to be done and find out what happens if it's not.

I want it out of the way so I can start worrying about other things, like the pigsty we live in.

A later update...

Sleep not happening at 1.30am. Reasons:
- Heartburn
- Excruciating pelvic pain on moving.
- The only position which relieves heartburn in any way results in sore pelvis and wriggles from baby who doesn't seem to like that.

Sigh.

Can't breathe, won't breathe

Cough is vile. Can't breathe so well and back aches from coughing so much. Tomorrow shall see me attempt to see a medic. This not good, need to breathe. No it's not viral, it feels totally bacterial. Wish me luck.

Sickness rather excessive today. Feeling not being though, so I should be grateful. Melon may be nice but it does not stave the nausea the way sausages can.

Mmmmm. Sausages and bacon. Lovely. That's supper sorted.

Yes, I don't eat red meat. Usually. This is not usual and I do it for taste reasons rather than ethical so if I'm not off it, bring on the bacon. I don't eat fish for ethical reasons, that's quite different, I do occasionally have to remind myself that I don't eat scallops.

Mind is in a weird place, I absolutely cannot get beyond next week's scan in my mind.

Possible outcomes are as follows (in order of expectation):

1) multiple pregnancy
2) lack of any heartbeat
3) heartbeat present, foetus not viable
4) one healthy baby

I don't need to point out that 4) is the most likely, but it is my least anticipated. I am going mad. I don't think it feels real yet, seeing a real living foetus on ultrasound will presumably make it real. And confirm whether or not there's any viable pregnancy going on in there never mind two.

Midwife visit tomorrow (after doc for cough) - maybe that will make it more real. I live in hope.

8 sleeps.

One week, two days...

I can't wait! I can't wait! The scan is next Friday and I am so excited. Although this week is proving verrrrrrrry long and I suspect next week will be worse.

9 sleeps, including the one I'm about to have.

This Friday the midwife is coming to visit. I have seen her already (back in the first week of knowing) and this is my proper booking visit. Although as it's in my home, I'm guessing I won't be weighed or have all my bodily fluids checked for deficiencies.

Approaching 11 weeks and this is how it is healthwise:

Cold has gone, but a vile cough remains. Turns out non drowsy cough medicines of the linctus variety are ok for pregnant ladies and are remarkably effective in a well-I've-stopped-for-now manner. They're not Original Benylin but they do allow cessation of coughing long enough to breathe.

Symptoms of growing a baby at 10 weeks + 5: unbelievabubbly tired, despite sleeping better at night. Sickness is more in waves than a progressive worsening. My boobies are now less sensitive and although huge, don't ache so much. Stomach is a vast expanse of bulgingness that makes me look much pregnanter than I am, and which I don't really understand. I don't think I can feel my uterus under the udder, but I'm not sure. The udder is much pushed forward by something. Bowels? Triplets?

The other October 2011 ladies on iVillage say they can feel a hard lump, I don't think I can. Or maybe I can, I can't tell. You're not meant to be able to feel it above the pelvis till 12 weeks, so that's a good indication it's NOT twins. Unless it's quite high and I can't tell. Who knows?

For two/three days I had a very sore back, possibly caused by (minimal) housework on Sunday. Muchos pain of the tailbone, which made walking tricky, sitting painful and bending a thing of the past. It's still a wee bit twingy but mostly ok, being able to have a bath is most wondrous in times of backache. The Hypochondriac in Me (aka HIM) diagnosed an incarcerated uterus, or at the very least a tilted (retroverted) uterus, which would push against the spine instead of rising up out of the pelvis.

Cure: lie on front. Have done. Got better. Still can't feel uterus: HIM concludes that the foetus must have stopped growing.

Oh shut up!! Yesterday's test (just checking) said 3+ weeks very quickly so my levels are still very high.

And where was I? Ah yes. Backache.

It is a little strange to have backache; having been dosed up on some type of morphine based painkillers for over 18 months, other aches and pains were masked and unnoticed. Now - I have twinges and niggles. Boo.

I have done very few school runs this last week. Hubby can be ace.

Current "craving": bacon. Yummy.